When the Only Way is Through: What Tarot Is Teaching Me About Money & Prosperity After Life Pulled the Rug Out from Under Me
There are moments when life pulls the rug out from under you - when everything you thought was solid suddenly shifts,
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There are moments when life pulls the rug out from under you — when everything you thought was solid suddenly shifts, and you’re left standing in unfamiliar territory. It’s easy to stare into the abyss in astonished and gobsmacked disbelief, dwelling on all that seems irretrievably lost. Illness did this to me. Losing my job did this to me. Watching my life unravel faster than I could hold it together did this to me. It’s a rending that demolishes and reshapes the topography of your entire life— your values, priorities, ambitions, and even your sense of self, as Gavin Francis artfully writes in his book, Convalescence:
“It’s a journey that changes the trajectory of your life, your priorities, your values, your hopes and ambitions, your sense of who you are and your relationship with those around you. You’re entering a new and unknown country with an unfamiliar language and no map.”
— Gavin Francis, Recovery: The Lost Art of Convalescence
Lately, I’ve been in a weird space with money, prosperity, health, and life overall — somewhere in a sort of liminal space or bardo, an intermediate state between death and rebirth, a period of transition and potential for… who knows what. After a year of pushing myself too hard, my health crashed, I woke up in the middle of the night to dirty cold water pouring down on me in January, then was laid off, collapsed to the floor while getting ready for bed one night and had serious neurological complications, and a friend called this life event of getting hit with everything all at once “getting hit by a mac truck.” And then I found myself in this Hanged Man state of suspension.
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At first, the darkness feels unbearable. The ground beneath you is unsteady, as if one wrong move could send you tumbling further into the unknown that you are so desperately trying to claw your way out of with all the strength you’ve got left in you. But if you allow the eerie stillness to descend onto your life and stay with it, be open, be present to it, something shifts. You begin to see in the dark.
Storyteller and Jungian psychoanalyst Clarissa Pinkola Estés calls this the place of “the one who knows” — the deep, instinctive wisdom buried beneath all the noise, the shoulds, the expectations. It is the part of us that was never lost, only hidden — waiting for us to remember.
For me, the devastation of illness and loss stripped away everything that wasn’t essential and plunged me into a place where I could struggle all I wanted to no avail. It forced me to ask:
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